twenty twenty five perspective

a post-new year self reflection of sorts

A year ago, right after my birthday, I suddenly felt desperate to organize and set goals for my creative career. I made this website, typed up a CV, and began the challenge of being in at least one art show every month. Artistically “applying myself” and actually filling out applications lead to a lot of opportunity! Most notably- eleven art shows in the span of nine months, four sold paintings, updated portfolio work, joining a writing class, scheming interdisciplinary art proposals, and expanding creative circles and community.

I have big plans to grow this momentum in 2026, but I’m also deeply struck by my winter exhaustion. I took a creative hibernation in December (albeit a few small paintings) and I’ve grown very attached to languid evenings and 10+ hours of sleep. My restless and incessant former self has dulled into a very sleepy girl watching Tubi movies and searching for accompanying video essays all evening. Overall, what a gift! My past-year self felt this intense pressure to perform productivity and stay BUSY. This latent appreciation for rest must come from a safe space I’ve created for myself.